Thursday, January 29, 2009
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Wednesday, January 28, 2009
So I feel the time has come in my life to just be open and let some things come out of me that I have held in for so very long. The reason I am doing this is because I feel that maybe it could help someone else who may be going through or has gone through something similar to what I have been through, and feel there is no hope. For a period of three years I was sexually molested by a family member. It was very difficult for me because I loved this person and was so confused because I was afraid of him too. He would do wonderful things for me and then take advantage of me when we were alone. I was 11 years old. I never knew why I didn't run away and scream. I would just lay there like I was dead and pretend it wasn't happening. I now know that many victims do this same thing. After a few years of enduring this horrible trial it came out into the open and we found out I wasn't the only victim by this person. We had a giant family meeting and this person promised he would stay away from the children and write letters of sorrow to them. I never received a letter and never heard that he was sorry. In fact from then on he never admitted he did anything to me. From time to time he would still say things of a sexual nature to me, and in my heart I knew he was a ticking bomb waiting to go off. For several reasons that I won't go into, it took me until I was 27 years old to finally do the right thing and report this family member to the authorities. For the past few months I have been tried more than I can almost bear in this court process. Everything that was done to me is all new again. It is hard for me to sleep and hard for me to be the girl I want to be. I am so grateful to my family who is standing behind me in support and love. You know who you are. I am so grateful to my co-workers that help out at work while I am in court. You know who you are. I finally feel a sense of control in this matter and know that God is here with me. It is time for this man to be put where he should be for what was done to his family. It is time for me to fully heal, knowing that the man who did these things to me is having to pay for what was done. I also pray for him to find time to seek for forgiveness before it is too late, he does not have many years of life left due to old age. I want to say that we just had a hearing on Monday and for the first time I heard the man who hurt me say that he was guilty of the crimes he was accused of. It felt so good to hear him say it out loud. I have waited so long to hear that. My heart leapt from my body. We just have one more hearing where he will be sentenced on March 9th. I can't wait for it to all be over. I will stand on that day and tell the judge how he impacted my life and plead for a sentence that fits the crime. I am terrified to do this. But it will be done. In closing of this crazy post, I just want to say it is never to late to do the right thing no matter how frightening. You can do anything you want to. God listens and answers prayers. And if you ever need anything I am a shoulder you can cry on. I will understand. I love you all so much. You are the glue that holds me together when I feel like falling into pieces. Without you I would not be the person I am today. I can't wait to live each day better than the last and look forward to life's challenges and rewards. I am so sorry it took me so long to do what needed to be done with the justice system. But I made it in the end.
Posted by Nicole Goeckeritz at 12:58 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
So I went to pay the ol Discover card today and I looked up my balance on the internet to find that it was 30.00$ higher than I thought. There were 3 charges from yahoo for wierd titles. I was totally freaked out because me or my hubby have not used the card recently. We did let my sister in law borrow it for a single transaction that we know the total for. Anyhoo I called yahoo and they said someone has gotten our credit card info and is setting up websites where they sell merchandise in our names. They even knew our address and everything. Holy crapoly!!! So some random a@$hole is selling things to unsuspecting humans in our name. Maybe it is some type of scam. I had Discover shut down our card and reissue new ones. I don't know how our info got leaked out but I just wanted to say be sooo careful about what websites you purchase from online. You never know who is seeing what you are typing. I love you all and check your statements often!
Posted by Nicole Goeckeritz at 3:03 PM
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
1. Steelers parties
2. Being introduced to books on tape that I thought were a waste of time. I was wrong!
3. Losing my husband to Mrs. Fields one day at the mall
4. Random Jazz note left on my car one fine afternoon
5. Gorillas that give hairless gifts
6. My two amazing children
8. Wierd food ideas that turn out amazing
9. Never using a recipe
10. The golden prize
11. Being there in the courtroom
12. Holding me at night when I can't sleep
13. Supporting me through anything
14. Tram rides to the top of a mountain and a slow walk down
15. Goeckeritz for life
16. Sexy bald head
17. Baby blue eyes
18. Buns of steel
19. Hottest calves
20. Achieving your dreams, this is your time baby! Go Roger Miller!!!
Happy Birthday to you my best friend and lover!
Love Your Wifey Poo
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
So our poor house has been infected since the week of Thanksgiving with the dreaded norovirus. My neice Brooklyn first got sick and then me and so on until out of the 11 living there 10 have had it. What really sucks is I got it again right after Christmas and then poor little Ammon has had it 3 times in 3 and a half weeks. What the hell! I have sanitized the whole house twice with bleach, lysol, rubbing alcohol and clorox wipes. I make everyone use hand sanitizer all the time. It's like I am the germ police. I don't know how we keep all passing this crap around and around. Everyday someone either has the squirts or is yacking somewhere. I have aired the house out to the point that we are all freezing our little butts off and still people are getting sick. How do I beat this dirty germ down? I can't keep doing this. It is awful! Help someone...... Or maybe stay away.
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