Thursday, January 29, 2009

Ammy and a girl hat

So I was bored last night and decided to put Sabrie's hat on Ammon. I told him to give me some cool poses. This is what the outcome was. I love this kid....

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

The truth shall set you free

So I feel the time has come in my life to just be open and let some things come out of me that I have held in for so very long. The reason I am doing this is because I feel that maybe it could help someone else who may be going through or has gone through something similar to what I have been through, and feel there is no hope. For a period of three years I was sexually molested by a family member. It was very difficult for me because I loved this person and was so confused because I was afraid of him too. He would do wonderful things for me and then take advantage of me when we were alone. I was 11 years old. I never knew why I didn't run away and scream. I would just lay there like I was dead and pretend it wasn't happening. I now know that many victims do this same thing. After a few years of enduring this horrible trial it came out into the open and we found out I wasn't the only victim by this person. We had a giant family meeting and this person promised he would stay away from the children and write letters of sorrow to them. I never received a letter and never heard that he was sorry. In fact from then on he never admitted he did anything to me. From time to time he would still say things of a sexual nature to me, and in my heart I knew he was a ticking bomb waiting to go off. For several reasons that I won't go into, it took me until I was 27 years old to finally do the right thing and report this family member to the authorities. For the past few months I have been tried more than I can almost bear in this court process. Everything that was done to me is all new again. It is hard for me to sleep and hard for me to be the girl I want to be. I am so grateful to my family who is standing behind me in support and love. You know who you are. I am so grateful to my co-workers that help out at work while I am in court. You know who you are. I finally feel a sense of control in this matter and know that God is here with me. It is time for this man to be put where he should be for what was done to his family. It is time for me to fully heal, knowing that the man who did these things to me is having to pay for what was done. I also pray for him to find time to seek for forgiveness before it is too late, he does not have many years of life left due to old age. I want to say that we just had a hearing on Monday and for the first time I heard the man who hurt me say that he was guilty of the crimes he was accused of. It felt so good to hear him say it out loud. I have waited so long to hear that. My heart leapt from my body. We just have one more hearing where he will be sentenced on March 9th. I can't wait for it to all be over. I will stand on that day and tell the judge how he impacted my life and plead for a sentence that fits the crime. I am terrified to do this. But it will be done. In closing of this crazy post, I just want to say it is never to late to do the right thing no matter how frightening. You can do anything you want to. God listens and answers prayers. And if you ever need anything I am a shoulder you can cry on. I will understand. I love you all so much. You are the glue that holds me together when I feel like falling into pieces. Without you I would not be the person I am today. I can't wait to live each day better than the last and look forward to life's challenges and rewards. I am so sorry it took me so long to do what needed to be done with the justice system. But I made it in the end.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Theft of my card!

So I went to pay the ol Discover card today and I looked up my balance on the internet to find that it was 30.00$ higher than I thought. There were 3 charges from yahoo for wierd titles. I was totally freaked out because me or my hubby have not used the card recently. We did let my sister in law borrow it for a single transaction that we know the total for. Anyhoo I called yahoo and they said someone has gotten our credit card info and is setting up websites where they sell merchandise in our names. They even knew our address and everything. Holy crapoly!!! So some random a@$hole is selling things to unsuspecting humans in our name. Maybe it is some type of scam. I had Discover shut down our card and reissue new ones. I don't know how our info got leaked out but I just wanted to say be sooo careful about what websites you purchase from online. You never know who is seeing what you are typing. I love you all and check your statements often!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

20 Reasons I love my Birthday Hubby

1. Steelers parties
2. Being introduced to books on tape that I thought were a waste of time. I was wrong!
3. Losing my husband to Mrs. Fields one day at the mall
4. Random Jazz note left on my car one fine afternoon
5. Gorillas that give hairless gifts
6. My two amazing children
7. Forgiveness
8. Wierd food ideas that turn out amazing
9. Never using a recipe
10. The golden prize
11. Being there in the courtroom
12. Holding me at night when I can't sleep
13. Supporting me through anything
14. Tram rides to the top of a mountain and a slow walk down
15. Goeckeritz for life
16. Sexy bald head
17. Baby blue eyes
18. Buns of steel
19. Hottest calves
20. Achieving your dreams, this is your time baby! Go Roger Miller!!!

Happy Birthday to you my best friend and lover!
Love Your Wifey Poo

The many faces of my stinker

Go Jazz!

We won 4 tickets from work to go to the Jazz game on Monday night. Awesome!!!! We rode trax downtown and walked into the Energy Solutions Arena feeling Jazzed up! I love them sooooo much. Mehmet Okur my favorite player must have known I was there becuase he scored a career high of 43 points! I love it! Here are a couple of pics from the event.

Happy Steelers/Birthday day!

Brian turns 34 today but we had a party for him last sunday. It so happens that Brian's favorite team was playing. The Steelers conquered! I made creamy white chili and regular chili. They turned out delicious. I am not much of a cook so I was kinda scared. I tried to make a yummy cake for Bri and it looked so perfect when I took it out of the oven. I turned it upside down on a tray to get it out of the pan. And rip! It broke in half and crumbled... Oh no! Ammon was so mad at me. He told me he was telling Daddy that I ruined his cake. So sad... I tried as best as I could to peice it back together and then frosted over the top. Looked ugly but tasted awesome! Oh well, it all comes out the same in the end. Hehehe. We had such a fun day filled with family and friends. Happy Birthday sweetie I love you more than you will ever know.

The egg disaster

So we were making some yummy cookies and Ammon really wanted to help. We put him up on the counter and let him sit by the bowl. Brian pulled out the eggs to add them. Ammon got so excited that he grabbed an egg and squeezed it. Kerplow! It exploded all over his pants. I was like ugh! And then I started to laugh. I had to get the camera. Silly kid!

Christmas 2008

So I am a little late in adding the xmas pics. We stayed the night at Grandma Cheryl's house and woke up to some sweet presents that Santa had left. The kids had a blast opening them. We then made a really yummy breakfast and gathered around the table. We talked about Jesus and had a prayer. It was so peaceful and wonderful. I truly love Christmas and the spirit it brings. I love to watch my kids faces when they see the wonders that are laid before them. I am so in love with them and my family. I couldn't be more thankful for all that I have and all that is to come. Merry late Christmas!

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Help us please!

So our poor house has been infected since the week of Thanksgiving with the dreaded norovirus. My neice Brooklyn first got sick and then me and so on until out of the 11 living there 10 have had it. What really sucks is I got it again right after Christmas and then poor little Ammon has had it 3 times in 3 and a half weeks. What the hell! I have sanitized the whole house twice with bleach, lysol, rubbing alcohol and clorox wipes. I make everyone use hand sanitizer all the time. It's like I am the germ police. I don't know how we keep all passing this crap around and around. Everyday someone either has the squirts or is yacking somewhere. I have aired the house out to the point that we are all freezing our little butts off and still people are getting sick. How do I beat this dirty germ down? I can't keep doing this. It is awful! Help someone...... Or maybe stay away.